Well this is me as a young boy (Paul Grimes), I have always had a keen interest in photography and I will upload a lot more pictures soon on my life and loves and relations!
I think that too many generations die and leave too little of themselves behind for our children and their future offspring, some generations are just not interested at all and will not bother themselves with all this, myself; I would have loved to have had a snapshot of my granddads life or even know a bit more about his dad (my great granddad), seen what he was really like and heard how he viewed life from his perspective! The best being hearing or reading about his life in his own words instead of through a grapevine or a story passed down, how did he really feel, what was his real passions and loves in life, Unfortunately that all got buried and long forgotten along with him or them, and all that is left is very few uncertain stories passed down and no doubt changed along the way like any good grapevine!
So I write about my father and myself so future generations will know more about him and his children, this site is a testament to him and a provision of more insight into this moment in time, some future offspring may continue, in fact will have the same desire to do so through blood who knows.
As I have wandered through this lifetime I have found both cognitive abilities and health issues all related to the roots of my past, my ancestors did certain jobs or professions that I either find myself desiring and/or already do (like it is part of my blood) and I find that in itself fascinating and spurs me on to find out more about my family ancestry and write about me and my father (in fact “the family”) right now!
Over the course of these pages I hope to put down and fully understand “ones self” i.e. ME! I have already done this since the age of around 30, in fact I have trailed through it several times and found new bits here and there to add on my self journey and understanding, some areas are quite complex and although now I do have all the reasons and explanations of my past and my own reason for being and doing, I also needed to set it out properly to make sure I have actually got it right!
Whilst doing this I may discover other forgotten mysteries along the way, additionally; some bits do make good reading as they are off the wall and you could say “and it has been said” eccentric, in fact two major parts of my life could make film who knows, they are stories within themselves and to say the least they are way out there in the cosmos.
I think understanding “who you are” and “why you are” can be some of the most important journeys of your life, until you can completely understand yourself how can you possibly ever attempt to understand anyone else, the hardest part of a self journey is being able to look in from the outside, seeing those ugly bits without trying to justify them and just accepting them and who you are, realising you were wrong instead of always right, questioning your very self and accepting what you see instead of blocking it out.
Putting aside the extreme side of my very nature I think I did alright, I think I finally found the balance and learned to accept my little bugs for what they are, when I say I love myself this image springs to mind a load of naked hippies dancing around trees, that is certainly not who I am, in fact the complete opposite, although the fiery side of my nature would give it a go, and indeed may have, you will need to read on to see.
My job here is for me and me only, however; I am also not ashamed of who I am and why, well; in the order of being honest maybe a little apprehensive putting it into text, within these pages I will be honest and give a full account of my life, there is little point in lying to ones self, although through the years I have seen people (in general) do it all the time and that would be self defeating here, I will probably curb around the raunchy bits as much as possible because this is (after all) a family site.
And lastly; for my babies, my children, if they are ever interested, they do need to see me for who I am, it may go some way to explaining why I did certain things, why dad was away from home and a final hope they find some peace in the fact that just maybe it was really meant to be this way!
I truly believe (within this experience and that said) our path is laid out for us at birth, we are meant to achieve certain things whilst others are not no matter how hard they try to break free of their trodden path, I am a logical person and on this (in particular) I battled with for several years, I could not understand it, it just did not make any sense to a person that thought that you reap what you sow, you make your own path and fortune in life, life I learned (and in my own experience) has a way of resetting the variables, making sure you keep to the path you were set, even if you wander off your beaten path, life itself has a way of getting you back on track and on to your destiny.
So primarily for my children and myself, and those that took this huge journey before me, welcome to my life. This site is an ongoing project at present.